His Grace at Work Testimony of a Preacher |
It was now October 1981, God had been speaking to me about many things, I felt a call to ministry and I seemed to be learning faster than most. I was told that I was different in my approach to God, basically they were saying they were not too sure what to do about me. Prayer and worship seemed to rapture me. I could not get enough of God and His word. There was a pureness to what God was teaching me. I could not seem to get what man was teaching but alone revelation kept coming and coming. I ended up in some small issues because I would question a bible teacher or a pastor; it was not always received! They said I was too new to know much about God and this I know that was probably true statement and their concerns were of good intentions. But over the years I have found that there was allot of legalism and religion that most were teaching. One peculiar evening I was feeling that something was array. I decided to pray so while on my knees, at the coffee table in the living room, I started seeking the heart of God. Suddenly out of thin air walked in two angles. They were smaller than my first visitation; about 5' 6" high and they were identical. They had bright gold long curly hair, fair complexion and woman like. They were radiant with white flowing gowns. I do not know how I got such detail because it seemed at that same moment I was struck with God's power. My body was as though dead, my face and cheek flat down on the coffee table. My body froze at the presence of these angels, I did not open my eyes or if I could! I lay there waiting, my mind racing faster and faster. I seemed to have all my thinking yet no body functions. Suddenly I felt the gowns of the angel's wisp on each side of me. My body felt their power; every pore, cell and molecule felt God's power. It was an incredible emotion, and to this day I can not present words or fully comprehend my experience to the fullest. As they stood on each side they laid their hands on my head; Again God's power enraptured my being. I could hardly contain myself. They began to pray in a language that I could not understand. I do not know how long they prayed but it seemed like moment. I remember the saliva from my mouth running onto the table. I could not suck it up because my body seemed frozen. There was a weight on my body that just kept me numb and in a wonderment of awe. Then instantly they were gone. But I still could not move. I do not know how long it took but finally I could move my arms and legs. I pulled myself over to the couch and sat there in a daze with many questions I asked God what had happened, He said that they were His ministering angels and they were ministering an anointing concerning the call of my ministry. I asked Him what they said? He said they had ministered from His eternal Word a Word from the Book of Psalms. He led me there and I read it, To this day I honestly say I cannot remember or tell you which Psalms it was. He then told me something else very profound and that was I was to study the writings of Saint Paul. For Saint Paul's revelation was a mystery revealed to the church under the New Covenant. I personally did not yet know who Paul was! He also told me something else, that has raised much controversy in my ministry over the years, and that I was not to study the Old Testament at this time for the old had passed away. He did not say I could never study it but at this time. You have to understand that at this time I did not even know what the word doctrine meant or the essential doctrines of faith. All I knew was that I had His spirit and anointing and that he would teach me. Today I understand why God spoke these words for many of God's children are in legalism because they do not know the difference between the old and new covenants. Many mix the new wine into the old wineskin and Jesus said this could not be. Because of this many have never experienced the fullness of God's unconditional love, a love that casts out fear. I must say that I have had many visitations from God in different ways since but I have never to this day had another visitation by angels. Now there have been times on the road to ministry that I have asked God to send one to minister to me but He has not. I know they are there but I understand the walk of faith. I can honestly say I do not know why I was so blessed by ministering angels. For these reasons I have not shared this story with many for fear that some may be disappointed in their testimony. I assure you as Jesus said, "blessed are they that believe but have not seen." Honestly, I am not sure if my experience was a blessing because of the many battles of ministry. And the hold concerning the call of God in my life. Ministry is the front line battle and I have seen many ministers go down. I have seen my own family go through different things that most do not. I have told many a soul that they must know they are called because if not they will be in for a rude awakening. But this thing I do know is that it is God who will take all the glory. As a minister I have learned that it is God who gives the gifts to men and that it is with great reverence and humbleness that I am a carrier of His gifts even in my frailties and shortcomings. I have just now in 2002 been allowed to share this in writing. |
Chapter Eight My Sixth Grace Visitation |
Roxy Nolin Copywrite - 2002 |
